Your predecessor (2016) was a year of breaking deeply-rooted patterns, letting go of attachments, graciously surrendering to hardship and supporting myself through extremely painful periods of grief. It was a year of intense healing and forging resiliency. It was a year of dissolving boundaries and consciously shedding layers of stories, identities I was invested in and roles that defined me. I finally learned how to fully love myself, feel completely worthy and no longer stuck in a disempowered narrative that had me believing that I am not enough. I learned how to show up authentically, connect from my heart and share these lessons with others.
But this year, it all fell apart.
I rapidly grew tired from trying to hold all the crumbling pieces of life together. I wanted to give up and throw the towel in, wave the white flag and call it quits. Some periods of life are not easy. They call for deep inner work and emotional heavy lifting. You blessed with me a year of important lessons and opportunities for massive growth. And those opportunities came with a whole lot of tears; I’ve cried more this year than any other year of my life.
You gave me the permission to get messy, fall apart and lose myself in the chaos. And you never failed to provide a silver lining in every heartbreak, every stumble and every shaken reality. You taught me how to shout “YES” to life at the top of my lungs, even in the darkest and most frightening moments. You helped my discover the power in my voice and for the first time in my life, I feel free from self-inflicted judgement. You showed me the incredible beauty in vulnerability. You worked your magic and invoked the parts of my self that have remained dormant all my life, helping me reconnect to them, setting them free, allowing them to integrate, so that I could become the full expression of who I truly am.
Thank you for divinely orchestrating every synchronistic moment, from the major shit-storms to the beautiful highlights filled with infinite amounts of love and light. There were some wonderful surprises this year, the kind that restore my faith and give me hope. In the process, I found family, friendship and sisterhood, the type of love that runs deep. Without it, I’m not sure where I would be.
For this and so much more, I thank you.